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For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many. (2 Corinthians 1:8–11 ESV)

 

Now I think we need to see those faces again ….

VIDEO

Aren’t they beautiful?

When we talk about Christian leadership and Christian leaders, as we have this weekend, it is possible to lose our grip. It’s possible, although none of us would ever want to do this, to idealize Christian leaders … to make them heroes … to begin to imagine that for people like this, leadership is like falling off a log …

There is in fact a glory about godly Christian leadership. In fact, I think excellence—a word we’re all familiar with and a quality for which we strive—is a reflection in human experience of what we know as God’s glory.

Excellence and achievement can be very vain things …. self-absorbed people who are gifted people can produce excellence. But when excellence happens in the life of one of God’s sons or daughters who know where there gifting comes from and who use their gifting to serve others … that’s when excellence becomes a profoundly beautiful thing. That’s when it becomes easy to notice that human excellence lines up so well with God’s glory.

The people whom we’ve talked about … the people whose faces made that video something that brings tears to our eyes … are excellent folks.

It’s not too hard to put them on a pedestal … to make them something that they are not … and to imagine that Christian leadership … for them … is automatic … like falling off a log.

Nothing could be farther from the truth.

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Let me define Christian leadership in my own way:

Christian leadership is … engaging reality with courage and discernment … a thousand times a day … out loud and in public.

 

It’s hard work. It costs. Sometimes its deep joys are balanced with real hurt.

If Christian leadership as you and I have known it is tough, imagine what it is like when the resources and the stability we have come to take for granted are simply not there.

On the video we’ve just seen, we glimpse the faces of people who are engaging reality .. with courage and discernment … a thousand times a day … out loud and in public.

 

I don’t know all of them. But I can guarantee you that it’s rarely easy for any of them. Maybe never.

Yet, somehow, day after day, these hard-pressed men and women summon up the courage and discernment to do the needed thing. They find that God’s grace is sufficient. Sometimes only sufficient. Enough, but no more.

You know what? It has always been this way.

*  *   *

Let me read again the stunning self-description that Paul gives us at the beginning of 2 Corinthians:

For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many. (2 Corinthians 1:8–11 ESV)

One of the enduring qualities of the gospel is that it is inherently transparent. It is public.

I remember a pastor and mentor telling me as I trained for ministry in a New England church many years ago, a church were we struggled with presence of ‘secret societies’: ‘The gospel is public. You can agree with it or disagree with it, but it’s all out on the table to be debated. The gospel has no secrets.’

In a not so very different way, servants of the gospel—if that’s really who we are—have few secrets. The gospel demands that we be inherently transparent about who we are, where we are, what we’re up to, how we’re doing, what God has done in our lives, and what he has not yet done that we really wish he would do.

For any servant of the gospel authenticity about life with God and God’s calling on us and how it’s all working is not an option. It’s a requirement. We may not yet have arrived at where we want to be, but we must be on the journey towards God-trusting transparency.

God is so committed to truth—to reality, to the way things really are—that false claims have no place among those who serve him.

Paul makes no false claims. His report of recent events in his life is almost shockingly frontal:

For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers, of the afflictions we experienced in Asia.

 

  • What, did Paul lack the necessary skills?
    Did he and Titus stupidly bring these ‘afflictions’ upon themselves?
  • Are these guys too naïve, too dim-witted, or too cowardly for the role of ‘apostle of Christ Jesus’ that Paul claims for himself and his closest co-workers?

No. These are just afflictions. Paul is walking, ahead of us admittedly, in the costly path of Christian leadership—his is apostolic, ours is something else—that so many of us and so many of those whose lives we’ve celebrated his weekend have walked.

It is, in this broken world, normal for those who step out in Christ’s name to suffer. It’s what Christian leaders sign up for.

Paul describes the intensity of their experience in a barrage of phrases that—if we listen carefully—leave us wondering just how bad things had become.

  • ‘so utterly burdened’ // καθ ͗ ὑπερβολὴν
  • ‘beyond our strength’ // ὑπὲρ δύναμιν
  • ‘so that we despaired of life itself’ // ὥστε ἐξαπορηθῆναι ἡμᾶς καὶ τοῦ ζῆν

Over the last eight or nine months, I’ve had a clinic in reading between the story lines of suffering. Both of my sons have chosen military careers, and both have opted for the hardest thing the U.S. Army could throw at them. Christopher and John have successfully qualified as Army Rangers via the notorious 62-day ‘Army Ranger School’. It lasts 62 days only for 19% of the highly selective roster of young men who begin the course, which by the way is completely voluntary. For the other 81%, it is lengthened by ‘recycles’, ‘medical evacs’, ‘getting Day-One’d’, ‘peered out’ and the very high percentage of would-be Rangers who simply get ‘dropped’.

As you can see, ‘Ranger School’ has its own vocabulary, its own dialect, its own way of speaking.

I’ve learned that this insider dialect takes over also in how my boys (now Rangers) describe how hard it was. They don’t say it like I would. I’ve only heard one of their friends use the words, ‘I thought I was going to die that night’, although I know they have all sat out there somewhere in the darkness of the Georgia mountains or the Florida swamps and thought the very same thing.

I’ve had to listen carefully and learn to shudder when I hear my boys say more careful words about one stage of their experience or another, words like these:

  • Yeah, it was cold …
  • Well, it was my feet …
  • Most of the guys were heat casualties that week …

You learn to imagine what stands behind those spare, understated, abbreviated summaries of pain.

Paul is being less careful about his own story of the tough times in Turkey, but we still do well to linger over his words and imagine what was going on inside his very human head and heart:

‘… We were so utterly burdened, beyond our strength, that we despaired of life itself …’

 

And then this:

‘ … Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death …’

This is authentic Christian leadership?

This is victory in Jesus?

This is what it’s really like to step out beyond the comfort line? To engage reality with courage and discernment a thousand times a day, out loud and in public?

For the apostle, it is.

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But Paul’s authenticity about the cost does not leave him defeated. Nor do the people we’ve talked so much about this week experience the cost of leadership as defeat. Nor, if you’ll allow me to say so, do I!

Paul says there are two things that happen precisely because he and Titus are so completely overwhelmed by what he calls the burdens they’ve carried.

First, there is this insanely important transference of trust. I bet you’ve seen it a thousand times. Paul puts it this way:

‘… But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God …’

He doesn’t merely observe that trusting God is a result of affliction. He goes much deeper than that. He finds that this is actually  God’s purpose in placing us in affliction!  The ESV captures this by supplying some words:

‘… that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God …

This does not exhaust God’s purpose in placing us in affliction as we seek to lead in his way. Surely he has other things going on as well, and we must also reckon with a broken world that scatters pain and destruction wherever it can.

But it is empowering to know that God is involved in our burdens and that one of his purposes in placing them upon us is to break us of our self-reliance—mercifully!—and to lead is into trust in him.

And then a second beautiful reality comes through Paul’s lines.  Just after writing that he and Titus felt like they were walking around with the sentence of death on them, he names God as ‘the God who raises the dead’.

And then three times—count’em!—he relates God’s deliverance:

v. 10, ‘He delivered us from such a deadly peril.’

v. 10, ‘… and he will deliver us.’

v. 10, ‘On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again.’

Now who talks in this repetitive way?:

You talk this way when you’ve known the despair that comes when you think you will not be delivered.

You talk this way when you have the persistent hope that God will deliver you.

You talk this way when enough is at stake that your hope becomes a prayer: ‘God, deliver me … God, deliver us!’

There’s nothing clinical about this, nothing abstract. This is life … this is near-death … this is the language of everything being at stake most of the time.

And get this: this is the language of leadership as repeated resurrection.

I can tell you that many of God’s leaders around the world experience Christian leadership in just this way: as repeated resurrection from what feels like death.

I can tell you that I do, too.
And I bet—although you may have never used these words for it before—you know exactly what Paul is talking about.

Christian leadership = engaging reality with courage and discernment a thousand times a day out loud and in public.

Christian leadership = repeated resurrection from what feels like death.

Now there’s one more element of this passage that I’d like to touch on before I draw these thoughts to a close:

On the one hand, we have the painful experience of two of God’s servant leaders.

On the other hand, we have the deliverance brought about by ‘God who raises the dead’.

There’s a third body of participants in the drama of Christian leadership: those who care for leaders and pray for them.

Verse eleven widens the circle, so that it now places its arms around this ‘necessary population’: ‘You also must help us by prayer, so that may will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many.’

You must help us by prayer …

 

Wow. What a gritty, real-world kind of statement about the role of those who may not be out on the edge, out on the front line, in exactly the same apostolic way that Paul and Titus are.

Paul does not demean such people. He does not say they should be somewhere that they are not. He does not call their occupation into question. He does not assign them to a spiritual second class.

To the contrary, he credits their prayer with:

  • helping those who are hard pressed.
  • generating the thanksgiving of many as their prayers are made effective.

The drama of Christian leadership is not at its core about education … seminaries … human effort …

Rather it is about our redeeming Lord choosing to accomplish his purposes in his world by deploying those whom he has called into deep, redeeming intimacy with Himself.

It is a drama. There is a story line. There is joy. There is despair. There is hope. There are victors. There are casualties. There is unspeakable celebration when the story has all been told. There is suffering while the story is still in the telling.

Sometimes our role in this drama is to lead others under a burden that is ‘beyond our strength’, one that feels as though we’re walking around with a death sentence hanging over our heads.
Sometimes our role in this drama is to care and pray for those who lead in that vulnerable place.

Either way, our role is a very great privilege, one we would be wise to sell all that we have in order to attain if it had not come to us as a simple gift from on high.

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In this very same letter, Paul will say some absolutely galvanizing words. As we take God’s servants around the world into our hearts and minds, our memories, our concerns, and our prayers, I close with them:

For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness, “has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. For we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. (2 Corinthians 4.5-7 ESV)

 

Rosie didn’t wait long to make her impact on our family. As we drove down the mountainside from the Costa Rica farm where we had picked up our second puppy, Rosie urped up the better part of a whole chicken in the back of my Toyota Landcruiser. We stopped in the plaza of the first town, two giggly boys and I pushing the enormous cargo of regurgitated fowl out the door and into the street as we struggled to keep trembling little Rosie wrapped in her brand new comfort blanket.

It was the first of many family moments at which Rosie was front and center.

Rosie left us this week, on my birthday, taken as painlessly as possible by our vet’s euthanizing needle. The house is strangely silent.

Chase me!

Rosie was not for very long smaller than her big brother Tucker, a mostly-Labrador Retriever who had come to us from a similar family farm, product of an ‘accidental breeding’—as these things are delicately put—together with his truckload of joy and spunk and his thimbleful of pedigree. But for the months

that she was the ‘little one’, Rosie scooted ahead of Tucker’s delighted chase and then peeled him off by running under the coffee table while he was left behind, too large to follow her under its low stance. Rosie was street smart from the beginning.

Her instinctive first move every time we returned home from somewhere and let her into our capacious back yard was to ‘check the perimeter’, running along the concrete wall to assure that no intruder—animal, human, or purely hypothetical—had wormed its way into the space of which Rosie had appointed herself the guardian. She transplanted this behavior to our Indiana property when we moved north in 2004. Indoors as well, when the gate to our upstairs living quarters was raised each morning, Rosie would hurry upstairs to check that all was well in this bedroom and that. Her security rounds always ended with a pause for an energetic ‘scritch’ of the head and butt. She preferred the butt, we the head. She got’em both, so hard to resist with her doe-like eyes and her Alpha insistence that things be done properly and completely

In her last weeks, as cancer began to steal her strength, she’d look into each bedroom and each bathroom to make sure everyone was accounted for, then—her mental checklist complete—would amble downstairs to her dog bed in the Red Room. No scritching necessary, I’ll just finish my work and then have myself a little rest …

They grow big, these Rhodesian Ridgebacks. They can project a menacing mien, although rarely is anyone ever hurt by a Ridgie. When confronted with a threat, they’d rather not let you in on the secret that they’d really prefer not to be forced to bite your head off. It would be so much better if you’d just go away. Right now.

In our Costa Rican neighborhood where our front gate was frequented by mostly harmless men begging for money, with the occasional dangerous opportunist mixed in, Rosie was the most effective safety check ever. In an uncharacteristic moment when she let her suspicions run to full throttle, we found ourselves apologizing to two men whom we found standing atop a car, sure they were about to be eaten, while Rosie danced around them barking furiously that ‘You’d better stay up there until I get this thing sorted out!’. In dog language, of course, which these men did not speak.

Yet this was not our Rosie as we knew her day to day. When Dear Departed Tucker left us and left behind his only partially embraced space as our family’s Alpha Dog, Rosie stepped in seamlessly. She showed all comers a generous spirit. First, Poor Blind Sammy—’Sammy ain’t got no eyeballs …’—arrived to begin his stupendous personal restoration project from Abused and Abandoned to Manly Man Rhodesian. Rosie made a big, warm space for him so long as he didn’t stumble blindly onto her when she was trying to have a snooze. She hated that.

Then came Psychotic Little Rhea, a badly abused puppy who might just have a bit of Catahoula Leopard Dog in her, but only on a really good day viewed through rose-colored glasses. Rosie became Rhea’s pillar, standing a few steps away as Sammy and Rhea discovered they were day-long tussle partners, Rosie occasionally joining in with a half-hearted romp but mostly just supervising the mêlée with a bemused dog-smile and a ‘Kids these days … ‘ expression on her ever-gorgeous face.

Rhea has spent the last two days roaming the house, looking for Rosie, who went for a walk and hasn’t come back yet. Sammy barked forlornly last night, little one-note cries out of his massive body that said, ‘I’m lonely. Where is everybody?’ He meant, ‘Where is Rosie?’, of course. Even dogs feel bereft in her absence.

Rosie had a dashing splash of white on her front left shin. People on the street would often ask as we walked with her, ¿Qué le pasó al perro …? (What happened to

Rosieyour dog?), assuming her leg was encased in a plaster cast rather than brilliant tricked out in flaming Ridgeback white. Rosie took it all in stride, as though she got a kick out of the ever-new misperception.

In fact, Rosie appeared always bemused by the joke that seemed perennially to hang in the air, always assuming that it was just she and you who got it. She would look at you with a delicious irony in her eyes, as though life was shot through with wit and it was just amazing that only the two of you were aware. It was Rosie’s way to take her human friends into her confidence. You knew she thought it was ‘you and me, friends forever’, no matter what the species array of the moment was carrying on about all around us.

When Karen came into my life and eventually into this house, she and Rosie loved each other at first sight. On a first walk through beautiful Holliday Park in December snow, Karen spontaneously burst into a run up the path ahead of us. Rosie paused and looked at me, as though to ask, ‘What am I supposed to do with this crazy woman?!’ ‘Go get’er!’, I said. She did, and until Friday morning they were rarely parted.

Rosie liked the woods, a path through it, the squirrels that frequented it, and the company of friends who walked there with her. But at a bend in the road that might take her beyond line of sight with those of us whom it was her primary responsibility to watch over, Rosie always paused, looked back, and waited until we were close enough to keep an eye on before she forged ahead.

Rosie was always checking the perimeter. She liked a scritch on the head, but it was always more about getting her people home and keeping them safe after they’d got themselves back inside.

Rosie had been the runt of her litter just north of eleven years ago, but she got the lion’s heart.

On Friday morning, I let Rosie outside and pointed to the truck. With a puppy’s enthusiasm and an old dog’s failing body, she romped down the drive towards it for one of her favorite things, a special ‘car ride’ with Daddy.

We wept as she stopped breathing, a look of concerned vigilance still on her lifeless face. Who will check the perimeter now?

We miss you, Rosie. We were always safe with you.

I recently had the chance to toss a small chapter into a quirky little compilation put together by my friend Dan Schmidt and now available in paperback and eBook formats on Amazon.

Letters to Me: Conversations with a Younger Self is receiving enthusiastic reviews. Here is what some are saying:

There is something maddeningly compelling about this book. You want to leap into its pages and shake some sense into the characters just like you’re reading a page-turning novel, except that it’s real life and if you could somehow grab them by their shoulders, you would realize you were staring yourself in the face. The talent of these storytellers is revealed in how universal their personal stories are. In their stories you will experience agony and joy, pain and healing, fall and redemption. —Adam S. McHugh, author Introverts in the Church: Finding Our Place in an Extroverted Culture

This is so needed. I’ve often wished I could go back and have a strong talking to with my younger, more idiotic self. These stories are funny, heartfelt, and important. Reading them will make you think and imagine a better life—maybe even give you the courage to live one. —Jeff Goins, author, Wrecked: When a Broken World Slams into Your Comfortable Life

One of the most unnerving, unsettling things one can do in life is stare at themselves in the mirror—eye to eye. Letters To Me is the sacred chance to witness person after person pause their present as they stand naked in the mirror, facing everything they’ve been and everything they’ve done. To listen to what they hear in their souls, to see their past as they truly do. Oh, how I wish I’d been given this collection of stories earlier in my life. The entrance into adulthood would have been painted with so much more grace. —Lauren Lankford Dubinsky, founder of Good Women Project

A beautiful timeline of truth, honesty, and hardship. Explore each story in hopes of finding yourself, and when you do, rejoice in the commonality and understanding. This compilation of stories reveals redemption of the past from the bright eyes of the present. A beautiful work of introspection. —Rachel Sender, student

Amazon posts many more reviews.

Check out Letters to Me. I think you might like it.

We rightly grow weary of the dismissive verbal wave of the hand that claims, ‘These modern worship songs can’t compare to the old hymns. They just repeat the same words over and over again’.

Our generation’s artists, who dare the challenge of providing us with words and song for worship, need our encouragement rather than our blanket condemnation. The established hymnody of the church, after all, tosses at us some sickly-sweet laughers that would make the apostle Paul wince. And this is to say nothing of the richness that is to be found in corners of the contemporary worship repertoire.

Still, the men and women who put pen to score in service of Christian worshippers today could do worse than sit for a while—and without a watch—at the feet of an old hymn like O Worship the King.

Shortly after the folk of Indianapolis’ Church at the Crossing this past Sunday joined their voices to a hauntingly fresh encounter with this hymn, I looked up the lyrics:

O worship the King
All glorious above;
O gratefully sing
His power and his love:
Our Shield and Defender,
The Ancient of days,
Pavilioned in splendour,
And girded with praise.

O tell of his might,
O sing of his grace,
Whose robe is the light,
Whose canopy space.
His chariots of wrath
The deep thunder-clouds form,
And dark is his path
On the wings of the storm.

This earth, with its store
Of wonders untold,
Almighty, thy power
Hath founded of old:
Hath stablished it fast
By a changeless decree,
And round it hath cast,
Like a mantle, the sea.

Thy bountiful care
What tongue can recite?
It breathes in the air,
It shines in the light;
It streams from the hills,
It descends to the plain,
And sweetly distils
In the dew and the rain.

Frail children of dust,
And feeble as frail,
In thee do we trust,
Nor find thee to fail;
Thy mercies how tender!
How firm to the end!
Our Maker, Defender,
Redeemer, and Friend.

O measureless Might,
Ineffable Love,
While angels delight
To hymn thee above,
Thy humbler creation,
Though feeble their lays,
With true adoration
Shall sing to thy praise.

Each stanza leads the singer through one of Christian theology’s great themes, without the worshipper even knowing that he is being instructed in this way. Our worship becomes our schoolroom, praise becomes instruction, our mouths sing out truth that shapes our hearts and lives.

O Worship the King is the antechamber that, in the hands of a gifted worship designer, seamlessly leads one to the cross of Christ. New Testament instruction is not explicit here. But so much that aligns with the Old Testament’s preparation for the gospel is present and accounted for: creation, divine kingship, God’s beauty, providence, divine tender-love, human frailty in the presence of a strong Sustainer, heaven’s own worship of its Lord and ours.

Only the address of God as ‘Redeemer’ necessarily points forward to the gospels and beyond.

Here is magnificent worship, not principally because it leads the worshipper towards the ‘right kind of emotion’, but because it makes it effortless and almost natural for us to exalt God. The emotion we encounter as we do so will be rich, diverse, and God-directed. We will not have sought it, but perhaps it is a symptom—when it comes to us—of God delighting in those who delight in Him.

O worship the King!

The best hymnody leaves little else for comment. When a writer of music intended to lead the people of God into worship manages to assemble, meaningfully and memorably, the great truths in a way that brings the simple and the wise together into adoration, he has accomplished a very great thing.

Recently, at the Christian community that my wife and call home—Indianapolis’ Church at the Crossing—these words came into our mouths. What more can one say?

Children of the Heavenly Father
Safely in His bosom gather
Nestling bird nor star in heaven
Such a refuge e’er was given Continue Reading »

say it: Jeremiah 50

A prophet like Jeremiah—and so many others who bore with similar reluctance the mantle of YHWH’s spokesperson—needed to be dragged kicking and screaming to the duty. Rarely were those prophets whom the biblical canon endorses as true prophets, the genuine article, eager with careerist zeal for the task to which YHWH had summoned them.

They dragged their feet.

Declare among the nations and proclaim, set up a banner and proclaim, conceal it not, and say … (Jeremiah 50:2 ESV)

There is a reason for the insistent repetition in the order. Continue Reading »

There are a million reasons to stay on the couch.

Passive resignation before the unyielding hardness of life and leadership can easily become a lifestyle. Passivity has a lot going for it, starting with the fact that it’s so much easier than getting up, walking out the door, and facing the music. You can even spin it in acceptable directions: living a ‘balanced life’ springs to mind and—apparently—to the pens and keyboards of a thousand suburban Christian writers, for whom balance and peace have become the twin goblet handles of the Holy Grail. Continue Reading »

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